Monday, May 4, 2009

Endings and Beginnings

I’ve been making a lot of posts here regarding my lack of posting of late. Time to come clean a bit. My marriage has been on the rocks for a long time now, but the past month in particular has seen the tank run dry. Yesterday we decided it was time to take the rings off. It wasn’t even an argument, just an acknowledgement of reality. Obviously, I’m not going into details here. Suffice it to say that there’s plenty of blame to spread around. Ultimately it comes down to the notion that we just didn’t fit anymore and haven’t for a long time. As hard as it is right now, there’s no doubt in my mind that, long term, this will be best for both of us (and for our kids).

In the meantime, there’s lots of details to sort out. I’m not abandoning blogging here by any stretch, but I don’t anticipate posting much, if at all, this week. Hopefully next week I’ll be in a better state of mind, but ultimately I’m gonna take it week-by-week for awhile. I will be back posting here regularly once I get my feet back under me and start doing things again that are actually fun to write about. Surely the upcoming release of the new Star Trek movie will provide some fodder. Goddam am I looking forward to that. In any case, even in a worst case scenario, I plan to be back in some kind of blogging groove by the time E3 comes around the first week of June. (I am well and truly excited about making this trip!) In the meantime, you’ve got Bill to kick around.

And because I hate to leave anyone reading on a down note, and because it’s been way, way too long (months even?) since I embedded it…

8 comments:

bill abner said...

Big son of a bitch...

Mr. Wyzanski.....

Damn that never gets old.

todd brakke said...

It really doesn't. :)

Jim Schmaltz said...

Todd, hang in there. Been through it myself. It gets a whole lot better, let me tell you.

billysasquatch said...

I second Jim's thoughts. I've been there too. Not an easy road and it may get harder before it gets better. But it will get better. Hang in there.

todd brakke said...

Thanks, guys. I appreciate the good words!

Jeff said...

Todd - I can't agree more with the other comments & your post - for me, deciding to end things was the hardest decision I ever had to make, yet seemed so strangely obvious at the same time - and feels more even more so with the passage of time. Hang in there!

Michelle B said...

You know that I've been there, twice in fact. Hang in there, I promise that it gets better. If you need to talk, let me know.

Ted said...

Sorry to hear about this, Todd. Like several others I've gone through this too, and with four kids. They're all saying truth. It will get better. Just keep plugging away.

All the best,

Ted